TGIF

Today i opened my blogger to find that I'm signed in to another account! And it's a woman's picture in the profile! So in my head I was like "Who's this mad woman staring at me like that?", then a while later it's "Oh that's just my sister. Bah!" Finally the day before my off day! been waiting for this one, but somehow i knew it was gonna be quick! Time flies when you work actually, beats sitting at home alone with a stuffy mind full of things, like how i spend my off days (for now only hopefully!). Tomorrow if all is good, weather is fine, health and all is well, I'm gonna hit the Gym and swimming pool again for a good weekly maintenance! If I'm to look good in that you-know-what that I'm gonna buy on payday, I'm going to need that good shape! I don't believe I can't ever get better anymore, so right now I'm just going to focus on not getting any slimmer! And I've been itching to run and feel some pain all week, oooh can't wait. You must think I'm a muscle freak! I'm definitely not! But I just love to sweat. OH CANOEING! I so wanna try that someday please.

Came home to find my dad and brother having, yet another, heart to heart talk, regarding money again. Ooooh boy, I hate it whenever this happens, yet being the youngest in the family and respecting all of them, I usually just keep my mouth shut, and my opinions to myself. Which is bad, because i end up with so much bad taste in my mouth i start fuming myself. So now when it's not my problem, it suddenly is! Cursing and swearing under my breath at my brother and his ridiculous long list of excuses, and overused exaggerated lines to try and paint a little portrait of innocence? Oh come on, the truth is the more i hear it, the more i start to doubt him sometimes. Because he used the exact lines before, and then after that, TADAAAH, Melodrama, Dramatization, Ending credits, thank you for coming. Always like that. How many times has this cycle repeated? Does he barely even get a hint that all this actually affects his little brother? For his own sake i honestly hope he just wakes up! If not this time even I'M going give him some real shaking. Now he's even got the cheek to ask for a laptop for his uni-course which hasn't even started! God i havent even asked for mine, and now he's making his move? like whatever happened to all your past few laptops man, sold them away just to buy other stuff? Now you wanna get ANOTHER one, and not on your own? Honestly my dad's being tighter on his wallet more than ever, thanks to him, And i can't help feeling the slight irk of suspicion each time I ask for abit of money, even for the smallest of things, and honestly i can't stand it. Like I would ask my dad for money if I really didn't need it! Thankfully I finally have my OWN pay now that I'm working, being able to sustain myself is the best feeling ever! And i knew all allong i'd have to ask dad for a laptop before uni, because no matter how much I save these few months I just ain't gonna be able to get one myself! And I only planned to ask him after officially school starts and they start complaining why i dont have one! and NOW how the hell am I going to tell my dad he needs to buy not one, but TWO laptops. That's going cost a serious bomb for him. And if he really gets my brother a new one, I'm going to flip. Seriously, What i feel is, you have been given a laptop before, you screwed up not once, not twice, and now when it's finally my turn to get a chance at one, don't screw it up for me. Perhaps I should see if i can loan one. That'll ease all my problems. Well anyway! With that off my chest! I suppose I can have happier dreams tonight! Another problem for another day!

Strangely my dreams are getting weirder and weirder these days. I wonder if it's work, or my thoughts at work. I get dreams of paintings, photography, most artwork. Like i can dream myself painting a picture, arranging a set of props for a photoshoot, and how i would wanna shoot it, some with myself in it, some just of particular objects put together in an interesting manner. And the best part is I've never done either, so i wake up feeling kind of confused. Weiyu by day, Da Vinci by night? And sometimes i just get this FLOOD of ideas before i sleep about photography, so much so it PREVENTS me from sleeping. I would just spend hours in my head making dream adjustments of the props and things i visualize in my head, and click the "snap" button with invisible fingers. Whatever it is, I just hope I'm not going mad.

7th of Mayyyyy

Scrambled eggs with sausage... Mmmm just one of the few Midnight bites i usually have after work! when dinner's simply not enough! Add some olive oil to the pot, Dice a large bradwurst cheese sausage and throw it in, then break two eggs and beat them into a good creamy yellow before pouring it in as well, then mix the whole thing about, watch it sizzle, smells the good smell, and the hear the hungry stomach calling! Put it on a small plate and serve (YOURSELF!) with a cup of hot milo. WAH awesome. And so simple thank goodness. And i thank the HEAVENS again that I'll never ever get fat no matter what I try. Just one of those perk-me-ups after work! Got to keep myself strong and happy to keep moving... come on 7th MAY!

Off-track!

It's always somewhere close, It's always by my side, and it's always in my pockets too! That's right, it's my trusty $60 fresh out of 7-11 Samsung phone with a model number that is, till now, still completely oblivious to me! Not only is it scratch proof (tested in my army bag, even with army HARD gear!), Shock proof (Dropping it for the 200th time wouldn't hurt), Water proof (Now, how did that happen again? With my whole pants in the water and the phone still can beep?), Little-Cousin proof ("Eh kor kor you got Iphone?! Lend me lend me I want to play game", "Sure! My phone is actually dunno how many G one!", *after about 15 seconds of fiddling the phone* "Eeee don't want already, only got calculator and alarm clock!", and most of all Theft proof (Come and take ah! See whoever so poor, GIVE him also can) Ah look at that nice Sunflower i have for a wallpaper! Calming image to look each time, before I enter an SMS argument, or receive ever-so-frequent phone calls in camp about work work work... And oh that polyphonic Samsung ringtone i hear almost every morning! Which usually sends me on a blind violent rage to smash the phone immediately, but still i appreciate it each time, If not It's me who's gonna smashed if I'm gonna be late for work! I remembered once a few back, i told myself i wanted to throw my stupid phone away for all the annoying phone calls it brought me, but now when i think about it! My phone's gotten all quiet, and it's only use right now is primarily just an alarm clock, which occasionally beeps in messages asking me if I were free to go clubbing. I'm gonna have to change this baby soon though... Strong and hard as she may be, with a battery life of 5 days then a 2 bar? It's just not gonna win me a hot babe! BAHAHA nuts. just a phone. But somehow it made me think the whole day, about all the storms and hurricanes we walked through, the heat and the sweat we beared. It really made me think, that If only i could ever relate the phone to a real living person, braving through the same hardships together with me, standing proud and strong for what I am no matter what i have done, with an almost-blind, unwavering loyalty, no matter how bad the outcome, just as I once did for someone a long time ago. I've yet to find such a person! But the good thing is I havent given up hope! Just got to keep searching...

Sucks to be sick, again, on your off day!

Last night was amazing and horrible, Amazing in the sense I'm amazed that I still managed to stand through the whole day with a horrible running nose and flu without ever collapsing. Horrible by the fact i had to really control and STEER the floodgates in my nose have to hold and control it almost all the time to prevent sudden leakages! Worst part is the sneezing! Imagine having two stacks on clothes on both hands while you're on your way to put em back on the racks, then this lady drops by and asks you for help! You REALLY wanna help her, and you somehow you REALLY wanna sneeze at that moment! Really hard to keep these hot, teary eyes open as well! Plus the occasion mind-blocks you get when you're annoyed by the flu, suddenly forgetting what the hell you're doing! Fortunately this wasn't the first time working on a flu for me, back then while I was working in that chocolate shop, the same thing happened, and I had to wash dishes the whole day and sneezed like hell. Horrendous job. Next time was in Army when a stupid FAT store sergeant, manfred was his name I think, ordered me to get ready for the arrival of the platoon from their 28km route march at the waterpoint. I couldn't attend the March because i was already down with flu, and now this bugger wants me to wake up 12am for no reason, and wait downstairs for them to come. They only came around 4am, And i had to sleep out there on the cold hair floor with nothing but the water cans, so naturally, my flu got a whole lot worst the next day! Seriously wanted that fat man dead. Can never trust a fat guy if you ask me! This is what happens! Anyway that plus a few more other flu related instances! Fortunately yesterday wasn't too bad, bearable, but barely. The only motivation i had was "Okay this is for the stuff i wanna get! Can't give up now! 6 days till the end of the month 12 to payday! WORK!!!" I must sound like I always wanna buy something huh! Die.

Funny thing was when this Ang Moh lady, probably in her late 20s, asked, of all the people in the shop, ME, how a Wonderbra actually works excitedly while holding a pair of those silicon flaps and gesturing. The flu wasn't exactly helping my mind think straight, and I was desperately finding a way to escape! And that was when she accidentally dropped the two silicon pads onto the floor and then reached for them which then led to an OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MY THATS BIG. But ANYWAY that's not the point! She asked me first if it could be washed or was it disposible, then she asked me how she should wear it! With that i held up the two cups in each hand up to my chest level.... and suddenly I ran out of words! How the HELL am I going to describe this?! "Oh wow well uh...." Fortunately she kinda DROPPED the topic and asked me something else. "Well then uh... what size do you think i should get?", Being a natural MALE of course, I looked down slightly... and "I think you should get the LARGEST ones", Finally giving up on the awkwardness! "Let me get someone who's uh, better suited to help you out for this!" and with that went to my lady boss to get down to the nitty gritty details. And it didn't really help that her brother or boyfriend was just standing there, looking EQUALLY intently at me for the answers I simply dont have!

Man thought about exercising today in the GYM and maybe going for a swim, but so much for that now thanks to the flu! Still thinking about whether i should go later on, but i think the answer's pretty obvious! Better to spend my off day locked up at home, than fainting in a smelly sweaty gym and embarrassing myself in a mighty fashion. Guess I might have to wait till Thursday to have a go

When were good Saturdays again?

Woke up with a funny feeling in my nose, as if a fly flew in and got stuck somehow, and it can't come out! Dahm this early morning flu feeling I always get before work! Thought it'll go away if i slept more, but somehow it still comes back to bother me every morning! Maybe becuase the air in my room's unhealthy!

6 more days till the end of April, and into the month of MAY. The month I've been eagerly waiting for! A chance to redeem what little remains of my own life! Shopping and what not! Hanging out with my old buddies, this and that. I'm thinking that rather than wasting my whole day daydreaming in the shop when no one's around, perhaps I should plan what I could do next month, more than what I should buy for next month! Been feeling abit purposeless, like a robot these few weeks, probably because the main reason why im working or toiling so hard is all for stuff i wanna get, rather than for living. However this should all end very soon once May 7th comes! Why do days always stretch longer towards the end hmmm?

Barcodes and more barcodes

Just when i thought the issue with stock-taking was over, oh gosh, now comes the big problems! So many wrong bar-code digits, end up I need to go and find one by one, to find the right one and write down. WAH DIE. Didn't know where to start also! So i spent the whole of my thursday digging into heaps of apparel and accessories, reading each and every set of 10 or more digits. almost blew up my mind! And it turns out one particular auntie's eyesight really got the better of her, so much so she couldn't tell the difference between a 3 and an 8. And she made that mistake 5 times! Thanks ah! Wah i mean somedays I've got nothing to do, but no need like that mah~ I'm good with manual labour, not numbers! And the endless number of barcodes i had to read... a hopeless finish, wah, really reminded me of a particular point in my life (which was actually just a few months back!) while i was still in the army. There was a week whereby the were shifting all the offices of the school and there was a room full of old documents to dispose. Naturally that stuff's classified so you can't exactly be ecofriendly and RECYCLE it, so we had to shred it, shred it all! With only one shredding machine... And i think it gave up on us within a day. So the next solution was to start a huge bon fire and burn all that crap! And so we did, barbeque style. For the whole of two weeks in camp, i did nothing everyday but BURN paper. burn burn burn burn burn. It was total madness. But unbelievable all that heat for two weeks actually did our complexion some good! Opening those bloody pores to sweat. And we had nice smooth skin for a day or so thereafter! Which quickly diminished after all the junk food that ensued. Anyway on the news those few days they reported a sort of "haze" in Singapore. honestly, I think i knew where that came from...

So tired OMG. I'm quite amazed with myself that I'm still awake somehow. Saw a pair of sexy EMPORIO ARMANI purple shades today, something I think I might neeeeeeeeed...

Waking up!

Stocktaking is a bitch. This is one of the few instances when I find that my life now consists of nothing but work and sleep, whereby I work really really late into the night, go back home to bed, and wake up straight to work again! We had to do the pre-counting of all the stuff in the shop after closing in preparation of tomorrow's stock-taking, and if you've ever been into a Ladies shop (like who hasn't?), you would probably know how messy that can be with all the stuff everywhere! And all the hidden stuff behind each rack we dig up frequently. "Oh! This is last year's model!" and we're all assigned to different areas with different stuff to count, after which had to paste this label on each metal arm of clothing to demarkate it. Anyway, somehow, and I don't know why, I ALWAYS end up doing the Women's Underwear. So I spent the whole hour or so counting a huge wall of Panties of all shapes and sizes, ranging from the really cute and pretty, to those even your great grandmother wouldn't wear, The really thickly padded ones that almost resembled those mummy poko pampers you see on TV, to those so transparent that really makes you wonder why ever to women even wear underwear at all? However if i HAD to choose a favourite out of that heap of mess, It'd probably be the red one with WONDER-WOMAN behind. To me the image of her flying forward with an arm outstretched and the strange japanese mumbo jumbo around her body somehow seemed pretty inspiring! Or probably she because she had the biggest rack in the whole marvel comic universe... Eitherways, honestly, I think wearing it would be really weird. If I imagined it correctly, If you wore the right way round... it would look at if she were flying outta your butt. Anyway enough with the underwear nonsense that went on in my head while i counted. I counted hundreds upon hundred of knickers till the very sight of one frightened me. Think I'd probably freak out if my future-girlfriend ever happened to wear one. "OMG could you please take that off right now?"

Anyway when the counting was finally done and all my mathematical capabilities ceased to function, it was time to go home again! Loooooong walks through city-link from Marina Square, Loooooong train rides back to Jurong MRT. Looooong walks from the MRT through IMM and finally to my home. A nice Loooooong shower, A bowl of grapes and a glass of milk before I finally climbed onto my bed hoping to dream of another 'Hawaiin Bikini-Babe-holiday', then the next thing, beep-beep-beep-beep! OMGWTF it's 6am already NBCB?! I snoozed through the first alarm with the phone still in my hand, trying to rest in DENIAL of the actual time. Finally the second alarm started to ring and it took me a pretty long while to finally summon enough strength to 'flop' myself off the bed, kinda like a fish out of the water. Gotta get to workplace by 8. Goddahm it where's the morale when there's no music! Nowadays I've decided to shower to party sing-a-long songs to keep my mind awake! Managed to reach on time, If not a little messy due to the rush. In order to be FAIR, we couldn't scan our items ourselves, so we had a fleet of Factory Aunties to do that for us while we assisted them. Fortunately mine was nice! AGAIN they all make the mistake that I'm malay ARGHHH. I have serious Ethnic issues! Why can't anybody guess my race correctly. PLUS my age. Desiree, a fillipino from Suntec thought I was 25... (when in fact she was really older than I am! By a year too.) Why? I look and dress very AH PEH MEH!? Haha oh well. Fortunately i was released earlier than usual today, at 4 30, for coming so early. Train ride home was uneventful, I was sandwiched in between two fat aunties, constantly dozing off (with my mouth closed thankfully!), and waking up periodically to amuse myself when i saw a bunch of army boys in front of me. The sadistic side wished for a black shirt with big white bold words "ORD, already, YOU KNOW?" Die all this work is making me enjoy even cheap thrills like this. Must find someway to balance my mind once again. Wanted to go jogging when i came home! but looked at the time! Can't jog on a full stomach and with sleepy eyes! ughhh. Guess I got to wait for another day.

Wouldn't it be great to date someone sporty? Great tan, Nice slim body, Sunny smile that always brings in the sunshine in every stuffy lonely heart? Awww. Somebody who's very image brings happiness? Hoho and would gladly accompany me for outdoor activities like sea sports? Canoeing? Swimming? Awesome. Ooooh a mindless obsession with only shopping trips all day totally kills the mood, like really a big fart in a crowded elevator. And all the places and things we could plan and do together! But hmmm does such a person actually even exist on this side of the continent? Well! Please pardon this lonely old man for daydreaming!

Sunday

Final Fantasy (PS3) is truly starting to get on my nerves. I feel like I'm doing the same dahm thing each time I put it on the TV screen. Every few minutes it's just bish-bish-bish-bish-bish-bish as you attempt to wipe out the unending supply of critters running around the TV screen! I can't believe i just burned an entire afternoon just doing that, with SOME satisfaction at least... till the game suddenly hanged on me and wiped out the entire afternoon's hard work. Just great. Maybe it's time to put down the controller a while and come back to reality!

Nothing to do on a Sunday Night? STALK ON FACEBOOK! Something I dont really do, but when i try to it's actually pretty (if not guilty) fun. GAHAHAH who's gonna stop me spying on some friends? OR all the other employees from all the other topshop/topman outlets out there in Singapore? Muahahaha and later when people ask me, I can always claim I did not! Who would know! Besides, even if all the self-righteous pricks out there tried to stop me, I wouldn't really bother. I'm bored, nobody stops me when I'm bored!

Normal life resumes in 19 days. I can go out again, be happy, hang out as much as I wish! But somtimes I really do wonder, after these 19 days, will I still be normal?

Slack

Today's the 18th! which mean 12 more days to go before the end of this dreadful month, though not the end of it all. But at least I get to see the results of this month's extreme STINGINESS. It had better pay off man! If not I'm going nuts. 7th or 8th of May calls for a good shopping day in orchard! Can't wait for the day when I finally have the time (and money) to walk around Ion orchard again, eat some decently good food for once in so many months as well! Clothes, Accessories and what not that I still need! May is also the month when SIM finally gets back to me, to either tell me whether they've accepted me or I have to rot on the streets for another year before it works out! Still! Gotta hope for the best! And I will need a new job for the month of July after my Thailand trip before school starts in August. At least that'll mean a chance to earn more cash for I start school! Still have to figure out what to do on this off day! Right now my mind's still not functioning properly without any food! First job today is to find some...

A nice break

After a few days of work, it'd always be great to catch a good breather, take the day off, do a good head to toe workout, run a few invisible round on the jogging machine, and get caught in the rain on the way home! Haven't felt this ALIVE since a few months back. If only i could find a way to FORCE myself to continue on this routine more thoroughly, that would be great! I can't stand the way i head to work sometimes completely out of the mood, and halfway through I'm already dozing off even while standing up! And life's like a dreadful wait till the day ends! Sweeping the floor and dusting the shelves appear to be my favorite "Pas-time", might as well make myself useful I thought, so i go about to sweep sweep sweep the shop from front to back and likewise the other way round. And when I'm finally satisfied a group of people will come on in and step step step step all over the place, just like mice. So AGAIN I'll have something to do once more. And I must say the way some women drop their hair... man. Even my dog didn't shed this much on the average day last time HAHAHA! There'd be clumps here and there and clumps with itty bitty things around sometimes? Ooooh man. Another dreadful thing is the makeup. Some people practically paint their whole faces with it, yet STILL look like trolls. but I'm perfectly okay with that, it's just that when they try on the clothes, and dont find a way to cover it up? Part of their inglorious face gets onto the material! Especially if it is BLACK. One made such a good imprint i could almost tell where her eyes and mouth were. And then there are those who we constantly tell NOTTT to try on the knickers (Women's Underwear) or bikini bottoms for hygiene purposes... but i dont know whyyyy they can still manage to smuggle on in and have a gooooo... and THEN when they come out of the fitting room they go "Nah, too tight for me sorry" and plop the thing into your otherwise fearful hands...

A few days ago we had a black out in Marina Square! One of the best things that ever happened to me on the job, it happened around 2pm to about 3 pm before they managed to restore the power (and thankfully I was on the morning shift wahahaha! Less hours~) So what to do if the whole shop's in the dark and you can see absolutely nuts? We chase everyone out, gather at the main entrance, sit down on the pedestal and start talking to one another. Man talk about a much needed bonding session. We were so bored we actually tried to do a one-round introduction to each other. "Hi my name .... " to people who we have worked with for a month or so already. My friends tells me about this iphone he found on the floor without a passcode and how long he took to reformat the dahm thing etc etc. wow. That is one free 1K ++ Iphone! Kinda like finding a gold bar on the floor. And man if I do ever get one, remind me to chain it to my body somehow.

Yesterday two stylists dropped by the shop again, to loan several items for a photoshoot. One of them I'm familiar with, because we've talked before. She's tall, with long hair, fair-skinned, slightly shorter than I am, and never out of nice clothes omggg... and man those cool rings all over her fingers, just like the last time. Definitely pretty. Only drawback is that she doesn't smile much, which, like my case, can be pretty intimidating! Ah what a pity I didn't get a chance to talk to her this time round oooooh, would have been so awkward in front of her friend man! Arghh how frustating. Sounds pretty childish and typical, but I've always wanted to meet and possibly hang out with someone who looks good and dresses up really really well, and at the same time seems pretty cool to be around! I never thought I'd see what I fancy exactly in person, but now to see it in the FLESH. Wow. Something I dont think I'll ever forget for quite a while! But I guess if I'm gonna try to be 'on-par' I still got alot of work to do, which is still in progress till next month. And i think the next time round? Screw the embarrassment, how much is my face-value worth anyway? I'll have to try to talk to her

What a life

Today the shop's a little emptier than usual, leaving me alot of free time and space to walk around and daydream about the stupidest things in life. What goes on in my mind constantly is usually the STUFF I wanna buy next month! And counting down the remaining days till the NEXT payday, Or what I'm gonna do at home later on! But usually, it's always about food food food, Ben and Jerry's Ice cream, Waffles, Dessert, Macdonald's double chocolate, Caramel Frappe, Azabu Sabo Ice cream desserts with mochi pieces... AHHHH! Especially after all the CRAP I eat each day, i end up craving for desserts more often than I would wish too! It's almost so bad, that when I see a fat woman in my shop wearing a Pinkish-cream coloured shirt, I'd start to see a huge scoop of strawberry ice cream instead. And those IRRITATING people happily eating their 70 cent Ice cream cones and Mcflurries when they walk past me while I'm doing the entrance! Oh how I'd stare at those for a moment before they zipped away with hurried footsteps back into the crowd. And how many time i had fantasized them into tripping and falling, with ice cream smashing into their faces. I think maybe it's all that MSG in the Maggi Mee that I've been eating for the past few days taking effect! I still gotta last at least 2 more weeks before I can finally REWARD myself with the cause of all this distress, MORE SHOPPING.

I realise time passes really quickly if you look forward to something each time. Like Thursday's a good chance for me to get a new haircut! Woohoo! can't wait. Friday and Saturday's my off day, probably should plan a hang out with the boys again! Sunday's the start of a new week! CLOSER to my end-of-the-month shopping spree. And thereafter it's countdown to payday once more! Oh gotta stay positive come on come on

Yet another monday

Man somehow I'm starting to feel more and more tired of work after each day, probably because I MIGHT have lost a little motivation for it, and because I haven't been eating good food! Days seem to go on longer than usual, I find myself with nothing to look forward to each time, and I'm beginning to feel myself eager to go home even before i start work! Oooh I have to pull through the next these two months somehow. Hopefully I get these sudden BREAD cravings out of no where and just wanna eat bread all the time, bread bread bread. Yesterday was my first try and cooking noodles at my workplace! It sorta worked! but the boiled egg I brought from home smelled pretty funny and the soup was pretty much tasteless! STILL I had to force it all down my throat to quench the hunger! Didn't really help when you see your friends all eating MACS around you! Let's hope today's one'll TASTE better, and not give me a quaking diarrheoa too!

Oh I need to get a new Facebook display picture soon too! Everybody'll just assume again that I fool around with women alot with that display picture, when actually they're my old close JC classmates! Still! Nobody listens. Nevermind. There goes my reputation, yet again! Maybe I should take one after i cut my hair again hoho! Can't wait to cut it.

Why am I hoping for the Impossible everyday? Still, at least it keeps me going.

Life's a party

Man I do I smell of Charcoal and burnt meat! Just came home from Wei long's 23rd Birthday party, and it was another otherwise awesome meet up with my old camp mates again. Somehow gathering together for things apart from work really does feel good! Just sitting around a table and banter about our life, what we used to do, and for those still in the army, what's new and ongoing! Have a couple of drinks (with me sitting out again, because in this world! there are just SOME people who are not meant to drink!) , get their faces red and talk about the silliest of things! Throw in some clubbing music (thump thump thump thump), barbecue food, all by the poolside and hey we have a party! For me somehow there are short moments when time almost actually slows down, and i look around the table at each and every face surrounding me, some of these guys I've been through hell and back with, some of these guys I've trained personally, and I start to think back about the very few moments we shared, whether it's hard and sweaty in the back of fast moving truck through the jungles of Thailand, The cold wet weather in Taiwan whereby we were getting our faces blasted by frigid water at high speeds, Climbing up and down those CRAZY high mountains in Taiwan, all while wearing brightly-colored yellow,white and pink $2 raincoats, running around like Pac-man with a huge bag! Our nights together when we're just dead tired, yet energetic enough to say the dumbest of things , and then we flash right back into the present and you see these same people now, having a good time! It's as if these moments just fade away when they're done, they happen every time we meet, and each time we see each other, there's just this very GOOD feeling that we get that's indescribable, and we're instantly comfortable no matter how long we haven't seen each other! After all we HAVE shared the same roof (and bathroom) for what? more than a year together? And we're all so familiar with each other temperaments even now. Man do i miss the whole lot of them. So glad i came.

So anyway after they blew the cake, we decided to throw the birthday boy into the pool! BUT though we took out his phone i think we forgot about his wallet and HAHA his cigarettes, which were soaking wet and he might as well have made tea out of them on the spot. LUCKY his blackberry got removed first... If not we might have to get another gift! Dahm. So anyway, I decided I sorta wanted to make myself useful, and give cooking a go, while those... lazy ass army guys were busy tasting and digging their fingers into my chicken wings. Did pretty good tonight, no raw wings or meat for the first time! Food's a little burnt sometimes but it's still edible! I should do this more often hmmm! Anyway apart from cooking, I had to juggle with the sound system at the party, playing tunes right out of my ipod and setting the mood for everyone, Hope i made a good DJ HAHA! Oh i think everyone else cared apart from my group. It's too bad all my songs aren't arranged properly, so i had to run in and out of the function room to change songs, and back to the barbecue pit, and back to the bench to eat and talk cock, then back into the room again for the next song. But it felt pretty good! At least to see everyone at the party having a good time. Then after a few cans of beer, the boys decided that it's time for some gambling, AGAIN. I'm quite glad that after two hours of play i still walked out with at least $5! Hmmm maybe i should take up gambling part-time, since I seem to be earning about the same at work HOHO! Crazy. This was the best night I ever had in months, hopefully we can plan a nice night out with the boys to chill again, like after work or something. That'll really boost my morale for the month of April. Go go april ooooooh, 27 more days of eating bread...

The Longest Road

The newspapers today talk about all the big protests and mess going on in Thailand, about the Red shirts storming the parliament and all that! Kinda unrelated to you definitely, unless you've already BOOKED a trip to Bangkok since last year, like I HAVE! Well then again it's not so bad, so far no much violence, just large crowds of people walking around, standing, making noise and unhappy remarks, and just being there for long loooong hours. Well why didn't they try looking for jobs in Singapore instead? It's just about the same when you think about it! Anyway so long as they don't suddenly decide that protesting is alot cooler with the aircon and air stewardesses and charge straight into the airport, or throw a grenade into every fast food joint they see, I suppose it's fine. and I suppose even if I bump into a huge protesting group, I might as well make myself useful. Rather than curse and swear at them with English profanities (... and later trampled by the hundreds of them) , I might as well join in you know? This is probably the one and only few chances for a SINGAPOREAN to take part in a protest you know. I better remember to pack one red shirt.

And today while I was doing the main entrance of my shop, this is probably the 26th time I caught myself staring at the well-formed ass of the woman working just next door. The shop's called DeadSea, selling beauty and skin products with supposedly minerals from the dead sea (which to me is really just table salt, really really expensive table salt...) and it's situated just beside another Skincare shop by the name of LivingNature. True enough by the names, The LivingNature wear no make up, and are usually tan-looking, whereas most of the DeadSea staff, with their otherwise hideous makeup and white uniform suits, really look like DEAD people. The LIVING and the DEAD as I'd always say as I gesture with my index finger, pointing at each category. So anyway while I said most of them looked like ghost or those hopping chinese vampires with a receipt stuck to their forheads, She has got the be the HOTTEST, CURVIEST ghost of them all! Like man i can really see the different segments of her top and bottom, seperated by a rather slim waist and ending off with a fine set of legs and a nice ass. And mind you, she's 'well-armed' on top too! Truly, the only thing worth seeing on a largely boring day when you're standing at the entrance. And MAN the way that she gestures, and serves customers in such a sexy manner, carrying all that BODY and jumping about. Woooohooooo I think I just broke my nose! And many days she had to wipe the Signboards in that strange white nurse-like uniform of theirs? Why does she always have to start from BELOW OMGGGG. Wah die already lah Weiyu, like that so distracted? How to get Service Star Award?! And a few days ago, out of her boredom, she suddenly starts doing some kind of sexy HAPPY DANCE in front of me. Just how much blood does a guy have in his nose before passing out? It's a pity to have to look at someone who's probably 5 years older than I am when I'm bored, but then again, when we think about it guys, all those naked ladies you see online are usually older than you tooooooo! Lets see if I can get through another month like this

One month down, Two more to go

Two more months before I return to the army! Three before I enter university (if they accepted me that is...) Then my life will go back to full throttle and move on! I dont expect my next two months to be any more eventful than the last? I'm already out of money which i have spent on my driving for this month, so I suppose I have to sacrifice some part of my social life to make up for it! The only thing keeping me going this time is the thought that 'if I dont learn to suffer now, how am I going to face the future', and strange enough, I sometimes think actually ENJOY the suffering.

Did alot of travelling today, first all the way to Bugis after an internet search on google for PS3 stuff! That crazy Final Fantasy 13 has been selling out faster than those Roti Boy buns when they first came out, and just before I got my pay! Fml. Fortunately after a few searches on the web I managed to find a nice joint where I could try my luck at getting my hands on it, located just beside two sleazy looking hotels mmmhmmm~ I couldn't help myself but peep in, even though it WAS in broad daylight, hoping to catch the faintest glimpse of something fishy buttt no, it's as clean as a hospital, though some rather suspiciously clad woman with heavily dyed hair was standing outside handing out flyers for I-don't-know-what. Should have taken one to see! Maybe she giving out tuition flyers! Anyway i think it's a bad idea for any woman with heavily dyed hair and rather revealing clothes to stand outside or loiter around a hotel 81 for so long, everybody's just going to assume that you might be a hooker you know. So yeah anyway! The point being, I managed to snag one copy of Final Fantasy 13 on the first try! Felt dahm good as if i just dug up some treasure from a somebody else's grave or something, and this baby's gonna have to keep me company and my morale up for the next month, so I'm really really counting on it. Geekish as I might sound, I dont really have much of a choice! If i need a reason to stay at home and save money, this is it! Though of course a new change in my life would be definitely be refreshing, maybe like getting a new job? Meeting someone new? Who knows, but i suppose this'll have to do for now.

Anyway most of mates from Marina Square are all about to leave after a month of working together! In a way it's quite sad because we had so much fun together, whether it's just day to day complaining about aches, pains, standing for hours, lack of sleep etc etc, or gossiping about people, customers, the girls next door outside our shop, even the mini-work place politics that would inevitably occur and go on? Even the guy i make jokes about is leaving! Now who can I laugh at! Well at least we'll see more new faces, some i might like some i might not. But i guess this may be the change of pace i need. And maybe the day-to-day happenings would be more eventful with new people.

Another month to see if i can survive with what little I have left! LEt's hope i fare better than the last. Maybe i wont have to sell my shorts this time round...

Payday's coming

Yup! In about an hour's time it'll be Payday! Finally all that standing, stand-sleeping, hundreds of otherwise-ignored greetings, and dealing with baby-ish customers is going to pay off! Though honestly I dont expect myself to get that much in the end! Maybe the next time someone asks me for a NEW PIECE I'll actually TRY to get one! Mmmm but i still have driving fees to deal with this month, so that practically chops my pay in half, unless of course i decided to totally give up on it? Which would be crazy. My dream of secrectly driving my dad's car out at night so funny places oooooh... Has to happen! Gotta work hard for that dream to happen though! So i suppose i'll probably be living on BREAD again for the merry month of May? Ah and pray that somehow i come up with a more interesting LUNCH MENU than the last, which almost killed me from poisoning (damned stale fried rice!) Sad thing about working here is that when you're tired, or REALLY tired, you tend to want to eat something hot and good, and some cold... soggy and DEFLATED bread. That's the only thing i can bring from home and the taste would still be roughly the same as i can imagine! Bringing stuff like fried rice or meat? After like 3 hours at my place when it goes cold, even the chicken starts to taste like fish! And dont even start with the vegetables! They became inedible the moment they left the wok and came in contact with the air! Ronald Macdonalds already has one hand in my pockets, and I DESPERATELY need to find a way to pry it out! he'll grab more than just my money~

Travel fares to Marina Square can be quite a bitch. Even though I WALK to the MRT almost everyday (unless i happen to be late!), and it takes me about 15 minutes to get there under the hot sun or drizzling rain, the fees to and fro would still cost me about 3 bucks everyday! But the suckiest feeling EVER, comes whenever you tap your card and the doors won't open, and instead this mocking RED LIGHT starts flashing in your face. And Somehow in my head I always hear this sarcastic voice coming out of the machine "AHAHAHA~ No money~ No Honey~ TOP UP TOP UP" And then I wonder if I could actually WALK to marina square instead... if so then I better start walking now, might still be able to punch in early. Hopefully the money IS sent into my ATM like the guy over the phone said! If not i'd have to get a cheque all the way from KOVAN, and i STILL have to wait for the bank to process it thereafter if that's the case how stupid! Think i shall go check now...

Work work...

How many days in a row have I been eating MacDonald's Fillet O Fish extra value meal already?! Man there goes the HEALTHY LIFESTYLE I once envisioned in my head one Tuesday afternoon after looking at a poster featuring a really muscular man, holding a carton of Milk in his right hand and a thumbs-up in his left. After a brief moment of trying to picture MYSELF in the poster, I wanted to try eating more Healthily for a start! It worked at first, started to drink more water, eat more NATURAL stuff, till my otherwise incurable chocolate-addiction took over and i started stuffing myself with cakes and ice cream after a mere two days. Dahm. And now at work! It's FAST FOOD everyday omg. Mainly because somehow it's just about the same price as the Chicken Rice Set upstairs in Marina Square Food Court?! Maybe i should start bringing BREAD to work again to save money also...

Thankfully time really does pass faster in an aircon environment filled with office ladies and occasionally some university students ^^, And definitely a nice change from a hot, sweaty, over-dressed environment somewhere in the midst of the Singapore wilds, where the endless battle with the Aedes Mosquitoes continue. Mondays and Tuesdays are wonderful days of peace and quiet, whereby i spend probably half my time sleeping with my eyes open, no customers, not much to do, wonderful... can do my own stuff, or at least that's really just... stuff i can choose to do... like housekeeping and cleaning. Fridays and Saturdays can feel like HELL sometimes, standing at the entrance of the shop to greet the all those people coming in and going out? I'm quite surprised that my Jawbone is still intact. Then again that's when all the babes come in! But oh! Count to five seconds after each one and you'll definitely find this creepy, or geeky looking GUY following behind, keeping himself a 25-metre radius away, just soooo we can painstakingly enjoy those little little moments when she's alone (and when he's not looking HAHA!) OH Sadness! I feel like a loser almost everytime! But still it's pretty funny to hear what your OTHER colleagues have to say. Today when a chinese woman looking as if she tied two ripe Papayas to her chest walked in, the girls were pretty fascinated by them, and one even daringly approached her JUST to ask if they were REAL, and later on how they were uh... cultivated. Sure enough, even though she said they were REAL, I didn't believe her. Like, Come on man, I've played with Balloons and plastic footballs as a kid, you can't fool me. Plus you're CHINESE, and you're holding on to the arm of a one bloody big-sized, rich Ang Moh playing by cash for your three $100++ pieces?! Wonder if he paid for that investment on your chest in cash too hmmm? But that one maybe by NETS lah hor.

So another boring Sunday it was! Everything's rearranged and all over the place, so I'm back to square one, especially after a 2 day break? All the clothes dunno where to put again oh gosh. Wonder if they're gonna rearrange it anytime soon! They can't keep doing this to a guy with already very bad, short-term memory!

Don't you just love big Gatherings?

And so the merry month of April begins! Two good things about it is that there are plenty of birthday invites and gatherings to look forward to, as well as my very FIRST payday since army. It's amazing how to realise what a horrible person I really am, to have planned how to spend before the money even materialises in my ATM account! And each night whereby I constantly DREAM of that very moment, with me pressing my 6-digit pin no. to check my new savings balance wahahaha~! Such joy. But let's just hope it's a decent enough sum to last me the next month and give me abit of shopping space, and maybe a chance to catch some movies at least. I spent most of the month of MARCH toiling away brainlessly like an ant, and at home, hugging my tv just to save money! My own social life went down the drain completely, and i havent been able to dig it back out ever since! It was only when I watched the CLASH OF THE TITANS today with a few friends that im faintly reminded of my old, more bustling life. Guess that always happens on the first month of work don't it? Man I really miss the old days of roaming around town and ION for the food gallery, Mochi and Marvelous Cream followed by window shopping and movies with my buddies.

Today was Connie's 21st, and I must say a she invited a crazy hell lot of people to her house (which could barely even fit half of them!), all of her friends, all the way from secondary school, JC, poly, etc etc, PLUS her family members cousins etc etc etc, so i faintly counted at least maybe 40 different-sized heads? Can finds all sorts of Ah Beng, Abang, and Aneh there too, and most of them are dancers from dancegroups too, hence the caps, baggy shirts and really low pants. I think halfway through some of them started breakdancing and popping out of no where? So hey there's great food and free entertainment too if you didn't mind! I know i didn't, I was busy stuffing myself with spaghetti and ooooh good good glorious BACON HAM. I think i must have shamelessly swallowed half the bowl without much of a second thought. Another part of my evil mind was telling that since it was non-halal, I should do a better job in helping the host finish it. Anyway the theme of the party to was to dress up in PINK (our lovely host's fav. colour!), so YUP while i was waiting for the lift down by the void deck i could tell who was going to attend! Sadly though i had nothing particularly in PINK in my wardrobe, so i guess i sort of spoiled it coming in a green top, but at least I'll be easy to spot in the photos yes? So much for positivity. Anyway with that huge army of pink wearing people upstairs and downstairs, you'd probably that they were rallying for the Singapore Breast-Cancer Society if you were a stranger! Later on I was pretty amused by how two horrible bimbos were busy fussing over some polaroid photos (which my host-friend had only in VERY LIMITED amount.) We were all only supposed to take ONE photo with the host and as a group if possible to save on it because they were expensive? I guess those two just the camera would spit out a never-ending supply of photos, because they kept taking and taking and taking, "Eh not nice!", "Eh why behind got people one", "Eh alamak take with me leh?","Eh new pose new pose come come". And a group of us watched in utter horror as the clicked the film away. Of course the photos not nice lah wah lau! Ugly means ugly... You think take a hundred times maybe the chemicals inside the polaroid camera will react will change your face into Megan Fox? Anyway then we started the Birthday song, which was really really LOUD and lively. one of the BEST I've ever seen honestly. I would equate it to a concert haha! But most of all I really liked Connie's Dad, he was a really sweet and cool guy, really playing along well with his daughter? Wonder if I could do half of that as a dad myself in the future hmmm. Anyway as i went back to my old 'hangout' spot, I was AMAZED to still see the two idiots clicking away with the polaroid camera. Then, oh! Finally they stopped! Oh well mainly because the last two rolls of film ran out, featuring only them inside. Maybe they never been to a neoprint booth? My deepest condolences. What's more they decided they should keep all the photos themselves, and dumped all the ugly ones in the bin... just beside the camera... way to go Singapore! We should really review our country's average IQ and EQ standards again. And then I'm greeted by my host's otherwise upset and depressed face "OMG did they just use up all my film taking themselves and then keeping all the photos?! Those are bloody expensive and i need them to paste in my book!", "Yeah! and now they're going to eat your cake! STOP THEM!" Personally I'd feed them the candles if I were her, but still, it was supposed to be a HAPPY day, and they are guests so... yeah! Anyway I left the party shortly thereafter, happy for my friend! And I'm sure despite all that mishap, it must have been really touching to see all her friends, and so many of them! Happy Birthday!

A short introduction is necessary?

This man is a simple one. Age 20, going on 21 in a matter of months time. His life revolves around his collection of Music and clubbing hits, his PS3 (which he hugs to sleep), art (In almost any sense, Sensibly speaking), Money (something we all DESPERATELY need!), Fashion, Shopping and clothing (Which he buys almost Impulsively), and maybe some cooking (Though he still can't quite seem to put a finger on it now, and still risks exploding the whole family kitchen.) as well as Sports, preferrably sea sports. He also enjoys making silly remarks about everything and everyone around him at anytime. And, as a result, it's not uncommon to find people throwing things at him, which he finds okay, because he can dodge pretty quickly :)

Finished his NS, waiting (impatiently) to further his studies in University. Currently working (or really just trying to make himself look useful) in Topshop/Topman @ Marina Square. His new year resultion to come to work on time isn't quite working out by the way, but still hopes the company will pay him good. Dealing with life issues often gives him a mild headache. Dealing with Women gives him a full-blown migraine.

Wants to be as HOT as Antonio Banderas someday too.

Okay maybe not.